Wednesday, November 24, 2010

THANKFULNESS

REALLY?? THANKFUL. DO I KNOW HOW TO BE THANKFUL? I WONDER.
IT IS THANKSGIVING TOMORROW AND I AM NOT READY FOR IT YET.
HERE I THOUGHT I WOULD DO ALOT AHEAD AND BE READY FOR IT, BUT WITH MY SPRAINED ANKLE, AND GENERAL TIREDNESS, THAT HASN'T HAPPENED LIKE IT WAS SUPPOSED TO. i JUST WANT TO SLEEP WHEN i GET HOME.

I HAVE TONS OF CLEANING( HAVEN'T GOTTEN UPSTAIRS YET) AND THE START OF THE COOKING TO DO, AND THEN THE DAY ARRIVES. WITH LOADS OF THINGS THAT NEED DOING.
I'M TIRED ALREADY. AND MY TENDENCY IS TO WORK AND NOT REALLY RELAX, VISIT AND ENJOY THE WEEKEND. I KNOW.... I KNOW...................I AM A GRUMP.
THE BUILDING LOOKS GOOD THOUGH, SINCE I HAVE GOTTEN MOST OF CHRISTMAS DECORATING OUT AND THE LIGHTS ARE TWINKLING.. NOW WILL I CARE IF I DO MY OWN HOUSE. I AM HERE ALL THE TIME ANYHOW. I JUST NEED A REALLY GOOD NIGHTS SLEEP PROBABLY AND GET A GOOD START IN THE MORNING. WILL I??? I DON'T WANT TO COOK TONIGHT, BUT PIES MUST BE MADE.
A WOMANS WORK IS NEVER DONE..;}
THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS TO ME ON THE HOLIDAYS. I GET OVERLY STRESSED AND CASH SEEMS TO POUR THROUGH YOUR FINGERS AND THE MOOD STARTS TO GO DOWNHILL. ;)
REALLY i AM OK.
IT IS JUST THAT NEW GOOD THINGS AND SAD THINGS CAME DOWN THROUGH OUR BOARD AT OUR STAFF MEETING THIS MORNING. THEY WILL PROBABLY BE good.. BUT CHANGE IS HARD. SO FOR TODAY.. I CHOOSE A LITTLE SADNESS. :)
TOMORROW WILL BE BETTER, IF MY HUSBAND CHOOSES TO HELP ME AND NOT MAKE A MESS RIGHT BEHIND MY CLEANING. ;)
i LOVE MY KIDS AND MY GRANDS AND AM WISHING THOSE THAT ARE FAR, FAR AWAY A WONDERFUL DAY TO REMEMBER THAT GOD TO WHOM WE OWE IT ALL.
A GOD THAT LOVES AND CARES FOR ALL OF OUR DAILY NEEDS.. ;)
AND HIS GIFTS ARE GOOD.
LOVE YOU ALL. AND I FEEL BETTER NOW. HUGS TO ALL.
MOM.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

SELFISH pride

How do we get to be so selfish?? Sometimes I wonder. I am usually more concerned about me and my issues than I am about anyone else.
That is why I need a Savior. Pride. pride is the issue most of the time. The fact that I think I am more important that those around me.. That my needs always come before any others. This weekend I saw that in myself fully. I got upset about something and wouldn't let it go. It made everything else bad. and I couldn't look at anything right. It took some nasty words out of my mouth to make me do a double take and see myself for what I was being. Thank God, I could see it.
Otherwise I could have grown to be even more offensive. I am praying that I will be able to take a deep breath when things aren't going my way and see what God has for me in it... instead of losing my temper and becoming sulky. :(
Sad isn't it.. you would think that I would be past this by now. ; NOT.
Pray for me, that I will be able to be kind, loving, nice to those closest to me. :)

Friday, October 1, 2010

Friday again. :)

Why is it that Friday is my most happy day of the week? Shouldn't I feel the same about all the day's of the week? But the anticipation of a weekend of sleeping in some, and just being able to be at HOME is such a welcome thought.
After work today though, I am going on a ladies retreat. Just off to Ft. Wayne.. only an hour away and staying at the Hyatt.
I am excited to lead funny music that you have to learn the motions to, tonight... and then more worship music for Sunday morning.
I have been really stressed about this weekend because it is a challenge doing music in a hotel. SO, because of that I didn't really want to go. ;0
the music challenge had me stressed.. would I use Guitar.. can't play anymore and wasn't ever very good anyway... keyboard.. I don't have one and the one at church is needed for the Spanish ministry anyway on Sundays. ...... CD's, which can be a hassle... but would have been a doable thing. BUT.. since the fun songs are from You Tube and from our Conference DVD, I wanted to have a screen with projection from the computer. :) Don't know the techy terms. And that is the problem.. with no men coming and us untechy women, what would I do. But that is what is happening. Our tech guy here at works wife is doing the power-points and all and he has helped her to put all my stuff together. YEAH!!!!
I am also bringing back-up sheets of the words just in case something glitches while we are there. :O). and then for the worship I am using the "iworship at home" dvds and there were 4 of the 6 songs that I wanted for this weekend on the two that were still in the library here at work. Thank you God. SO.. I am starting to get excited. I am praying that God will speak to me, directly. :)

I get to room with my daughter, Connie and another lady.
I still have to get new tires put on my car at noon so I can be safe driving to Ft. Wayne. and stop and grab my pillow at home on the way out of town... I forgot it. ;(
But I am packed and ready.
Den will be on his own for the weekend.... but I will be home around 1 on Sunday. not bad. and not too expensive of a retreat.
WOOHOO>



Thursday, September 23, 2010

one more praise.

The young man from the hammock accident talked yesterday for the first time and could move his shoulders. :) SO, YEAH GOD ! As the swelling diminishes may he regain full use. :)
Connie said that they weren't boyfriend and girlfriend.. (just assumed) just friends.

Thursday.

Today is Thursday and it is slow again. I hate slow. It makes the day take forever. :)
There are always the books that need to be ordered and the ones that come in that need to be put into the program and stamped and stickered and then always some books needing to be put away. These are the only things I have going right now, besides transfering everything from one calendar to another new one.
Dad is on a new and different roof today. One that needs to be done ASAP and so the weather needs to cooperate.
Pray that I will have a restful weekend.. that Dad will be able to accomplish his task.
PRAISE that someone gifted Jason and Crystal with 5K for a vehicle. :)
Pray for Matt and Charrie as someone tried to break into their house in the wee hours of the morning last friday, scaring them both... and since, she is having some fear related issues. :(
.......God place a hedge around Matt and Charrie's house and don't allow the evil one to keep her afraid. Give her a spirit of peace and the ability to be home alone with out any fear....
Praise....Emma is growing good and looking sweet. Pray for rest for Tyler and Connie and that Emma would be a calm, sweet little girl with a heart for Jesus.
I love my children. Wish we were closer. miss our SUNDAY meals together. hUGS and kisses to all.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Frustration.

This week has been somewhat hard. Because I am the only one here to answer phones. so far. and I haven't felt really great. Fighting a cold. but no one to take my place so I couldn't stay home. :) Oh well... such is life sometimes and I will try not to be a perpetual complainer.
This week was another week of sadness for our community.

A couple from Grace went out for a late night walk( she a freshman volleyball player from a town close by and he a senior from Iowa and they ended up sitting on a hammock down by the park. This was probably a hammock that just belongs to one of the homes down there, because I don't think that the park has any hammocks in it.. but peoples yards run way down by the lake where people can still walk.
Well, one side of the hammock was tied to a 6 ft. dead tree. and when they both sat down it broke off at the bottom and came flying at them, killing the girl instantly and trapping the guy under her with the tree on top. He had neck injuries and couldn't talk or yell. So, while they are lying there someone else... by Gods rich grace came along for a midnight walk and heard some moaning. Went over and then called 911. This young man has been through 2-5 hour surgeries and has an extremely badly damaged spine. The Dr. said that he hasn't seen any spinal injury this bad and it looks as though he will be a quadropalegic ( can't spell) but who knows what God has in mind as the huge horrible swelling around his spine goes down. It was not broken.. but moved way out of place and so GOD can do a miracle for this young man.. That is what we are praying for. Please pray with us.

Monday, September 20, 2010

Today at work

Here I am at work and it is 12:30. I should be done with tons of things and I am not.. wonder why? :) I am here that is why. I am fighting sickness and stayed home all day yesterday. It was painful to my back to be down most of the day.. and then I sneezed this morning and threw something out. Good grief. ) I'm Old.
It was fun to go in this weekend and see pictures of our newest addition to the Boyd bunch... Matt and Charrie's dear little one. and then to go on this morning and see darling pictures of our Emma.
She even has a cute little dimple. ;) SO happy to see her getting dedicated to the Lord. :) Glad to see my kids walking in the truth. I pray every day for the little lives entrusted to my children. They are all very precious to Him and to me. :)
I have a busy day ahead.. and meeting tonight... and also must get ready for Cubbies on Wednesday night. :) I am happy to be able to help teach little ones about Jesus. I thought I was getting to old for some of this.. but no, it is a marvelous outlet for me. For art and other reasons.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

September 2010

So here it is September already. My kids are wonderful about putting pictures up and doing the daily/weekly blog thing and I can't seem to get here but once a year. :)
Now that I am here to inspect my one daughter/Sons blog and see the new little baby growing.. and my other daughter/son's blog and see my new granddaughter growing through pictures, maybe I will remember to come here more.
It has been a really really hard year, so far, with dear friends dying and sadness. But also, it has been exciting to watch God work in the lives of his people.
I think that God is getting ready to do something really really big on this old planet and surprise us all. I am ready for it. ... or maybe not. :) I would like to think that I am ready. But what have I done for God. .... would he find me faithful? I need to get prepared LIKE the bridesmaids.. and have my lamp burning brightly. GOD, it is my prayer that I could be a light for you in my world.

Off that theme.....
It is 5 and time to go.. and tonight is NO WAY JOSEA's taco tuesday. :) Den is helping Jim and Tammie to remodel a rental. God is good and gives us good friends to be a blessing to. He made the moon reflect the SUN. :)LOVE HIM!!