How do we get to be so selfish?? Sometimes I wonder. I am usually more concerned about me and my issues than I am about anyone else.
That is why I need a Savior. Pride. pride is the issue most of the time. The fact that I think I am more important that those around me.. That my needs always come before any others. This weekend I saw that in myself fully. I got upset about something and wouldn't let it go. It made everything else bad. and I couldn't look at anything right. It took some nasty words out of my mouth to make me do a double take and see myself for what I was being. Thank God, I could see it.
Otherwise I could have grown to be even more offensive. I am praying that I will be able to take a deep breath when things aren't going my way and see what God has for me in it... instead of losing my temper and becoming sulky. :(
Sad isn't it.. you would think that I would be past this by now. ; NOT.
Pray for me, that I will be able to be kind, loving, nice to those closest to me. :)
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Friday, October 1, 2010
Friday again. :)
Why is it that Friday is my most happy day of the week? Shouldn't I feel the same about all the day's of the week? But the anticipation of a weekend of sleeping in some, and just being able to be at HOME is such a welcome thought.
After work today though, I am going on a ladies retreat. Just off to Ft. Wayne.. only an hour away and staying at the Hyatt.
I am excited to lead funny music that you have to learn the motions to, tonight... and then more worship music for Sunday morning.
I have been really stressed about this weekend because it is a challenge doing music in a hotel. SO, because of that I didn't really want to go. ;0
the music challenge had me stressed.. would I use Guitar.. can't play anymore and wasn't ever very good anyway... keyboard.. I don't have one and the one at church is needed for the Spanish ministry anyway on Sundays. ...... CD's, which can be a hassle... but would have been a doable thing. BUT.. since the fun songs are from You Tube and from our Conference DVD, I wanted to have a screen with projection from the computer. :) Don't know the techy terms. And that is the problem.. with no men coming and us untechy women, what would I do. But that is what is happening. Our tech guy here at works wife is doing the power-points and all and he has helped her to put all my stuff together. YEAH!!!!
I am also bringing back-up sheets of the words just in case something glitches while we are there. :O). and then for the worship I am using the "iworship at home" dvds and there were 4 of the 6 songs that I wanted for this weekend on the two that were still in the library here at work. Thank you God. SO.. I am starting to get excited. I am praying that God will speak to me, directly. :)
I get to room with my daughter, Connie and another lady.
I still have to get new tires put on my car at noon so I can be safe driving to Ft. Wayne. and stop and grab my pillow at home on the way out of town... I forgot it. ;(
But I am packed and ready.
Den will be on his own for the weekend.... but I will be home around 1 on Sunday. not bad. and not too expensive of a retreat.
WOOHOO>
After work today though, I am going on a ladies retreat. Just off to Ft. Wayne.. only an hour away and staying at the Hyatt.
I am excited to lead funny music that you have to learn the motions to, tonight... and then more worship music for Sunday morning.
I have been really stressed about this weekend because it is a challenge doing music in a hotel. SO, because of that I didn't really want to go. ;0
the music challenge had me stressed.. would I use Guitar.. can't play anymore and wasn't ever very good anyway... keyboard.. I don't have one and the one at church is needed for the Spanish ministry anyway on Sundays. ...... CD's, which can be a hassle... but would have been a doable thing. BUT.. since the fun songs are from You Tube and from our Conference DVD, I wanted to have a screen with projection from the computer. :) Don't know the techy terms. And that is the problem.. with no men coming and us untechy women, what would I do. But that is what is happening. Our tech guy here at works wife is doing the power-points and all and he has helped her to put all my stuff together. YEAH!!!!
I am also bringing back-up sheets of the words just in case something glitches while we are there. :O). and then for the worship I am using the "iworship at home" dvds and there were 4 of the 6 songs that I wanted for this weekend on the two that were still in the library here at work. Thank you God. SO.. I am starting to get excited. I am praying that God will speak to me, directly. :)
I get to room with my daughter, Connie and another lady.
I still have to get new tires put on my car at noon so I can be safe driving to Ft. Wayne. and stop and grab my pillow at home on the way out of town... I forgot it. ;(
But I am packed and ready.
Den will be on his own for the weekend.... but I will be home around 1 on Sunday. not bad. and not too expensive of a retreat.
WOOHOO>
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